Scars

Cheryl Rainfield's book Scars is a free download today and tomorrow. I've had this book on my to be read list since I first head about it. I think this book grabbed my attention since at a low point in my life I used to image taking a knife to my wrists and just laying down to bleed out. I was also once in a relationship with a pro wrestler who was a cutter. He disguised his cutting by blading in his matches. Blading is taking a taped up razor blade to your forehead and cutting to draw blood. There's an old saying in the wrestling business that red (blood) = green (cash). This guy would go for the blade regardless of the payoff. He just like the sweet pain of the blade sinking into his skin. The lightheadedness that got worse as the match progressed. The ability to feel something other than numb.

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Kendra must face her past and stop hurting herself—before it's too late....

An edgy, realistic, and hopeful novel about a teen survivor of sexual abuse who uses self-harm to cope.

Kendra, fifteen, hasn't felt safe since she began to recall devastating memories of childhood sexual abuse, especially because she still can't remember the most important detail – her abuser's identity. Frightened, Kendra believes someone is always watching and following her, leaving menacing messages only she understands. If she lets her guard down even for a minute, it could cost Kendra her life. To relieve the pressure, Kendra cuts; aside from her brilliantly expressive artwork, it's her only way of coping. Since her own mother is too self-absorbed to hear her cries for help, Kendra finds support in others instead: from her therapist and her art teacher, from Sandy, the close family friend who encourages her artwork, and from Meghan, the classmate who's becoming a friend and maybe more. But the truth about Kendra's abuse is just waiting to explode, with startling unforeseen consequences. SCARS is the unforgettable story of one girl's frightening path to the truth.